Really had a good time, dunch in Alfresco yesterday.

Elegant and classy ambience with well cooked dishes.

Aglio olio for me, coriander cheesy pasta for @lihui3736 , and chicken cheesy corn potatoes for @yangting0515.

Mixed fruit drink a bit exp, rm8 but goes well with the soothing atmosphere smile emoticon

Thanks for the good day!! ^^

Rotaract Club Unimas 2015

Helping people in need and spreading joy is what I learned a lot today by participating in the Sarawak Cheshire Home 2015..

Footsteps in the first fresh sunlight in front of the lawn of Sarawak Cheshire Home, I was going to start my meaningful journey in this small humble home.

The engines roared and the wheels of the bus rolled for about an hour Unimas, Kota Samarahan before we had our first view of the tiny home.

MV Logo's Hope Kuching 2015

MV Logo's Hope have finally sailed in Kuching this 2015!!

 
 Started off my weekend by inviting like crapp so many people.. always kena reject like crapp... crapp mann,, then the next week.. ppl ask me want to goo.. why whyy

I wishh I could hold  my relationn..shippss as BIGG as thiss!!
 
Paraguians!!


This flippy-flopy dude!

The lovely painting on the wall


Brazilian ladyy and ... excuse me miss. sorry I dint ask earlier...
Brazilian said her hometown is very much like Kuching as the forests are quite similiar..
and her hatt is made from real featherss!! :o

His eyess... are there vampires in Germany?


Taking a break.. time to splat my friend's face with ice cream a bit... t


Russia and United States :DD Omgg.. denimm!! -drools Mr Russia Bro.. thanks for teaching and Mei Wei that funky Russia dance xD

Gypsies decided to land on a boat.. HAHAH! jk..no idea what country is this...anyone have any idea?
 
Oii M8!! Maybe you can take me surfing one dayy!! He kind or reminds me of Mr Mosby from Suite Life of Zack and Cody.. what if hee iss really the manager??

yerr.. we camping and boiling some tasties yeaa.. Canadian style!!
 
Kimchii!! Yes pleasee!! And were go to Seoul on a tripp... :D
 

The highlight of the dayy!! I met this very friendly Paraguayian!! Just had a lovely little chatt and was soo glad to meet her!! If you're reading this Deborah Krahn!! I hope we can remain in contact even through sails and seass :D It was awesome meeting youu and mayy we have an awesome time meeting up again someday ^^

Pls leave a comment to know about my travel.. kind of rushing now :D But will update my trip later ^^

Belgian Waffles

Belgian waffles right outside Seway Summer Mall... so convenient
Tastes awesome!
Wiki:The Belgian waffle is a type of waffle popular in Europe and North America. Compared to the standard American waffle, it is identified by its larger size, lighter batter, larger squares, and a higher grid pattern that forms deep pockets.

Well this one wasnt 'biggg' but it was sureee good...

Get yours outside Sewayy.. it's veryy good ^^

Music Birds

Time to blog some shyt because i'm depressed..

 Do Ti La Do-Re La Do-Re Do So La Fa Me La
Nowww isn't this justtt cuteee?? Puffed little birds perched on the window sill to make waves and notes to chipper a sad mind... 

These are just the simple house sparrows you can see hopping about in Malaysia... which reminds me a question o.o.. what are the common birds in public places in other countries??

Malaysia can be seen with these cute fatties hopping all around perching at any rice or meals on the table!

My name is ...

My name is ..Melissa..
and I'm bad at introductions...
I dont have much to say about myself...
I suck at a lot of things...
to remember, to feel happiness, to relax, to not be able to cry, to especially receive help
noone appreciates me, noone cares,
i dont have someone who can believe in me.. when I tried so hard to be there,
i had enough... i cant believe in myself anymore... maybe what i see is myself is what i believe in myself...
i cant stand myself.. i hate myself..
Im fucking fine, I have 2 perfect pair of eyes with lovely shape, I have cute teeth , i have hair that drops down in layer waves and reacches, i have shorter height which makes it cute, I have everything a girl can want... my health is good
my grades were good, i had band 5, im quick on my toes in sports, I have funny skills and accents at times... I can make ppl laugh if i want to.. i can be a happy sport if i want to.. i like sports, i feel im improving each time..
i can draw i can dress up, i can go happy..
but one thing i cant... is make my smile change each day..
the smile in my heart is turning more and more sad..
I stretch my mouth jaws once in a while, hear it pop, i blink my eyes a lot to get it right, i try to slim my face, maybe sharp it a bit to put that more permanent fixture of smile each day..
every sharper smile, but tearing deep heart..

im getting more fearful each day... im losing confidence.. im scared... im scared noone would be there for me ... im scared people dont really care... im scared to cry... im scared to speak out.. i dont know what to believe in anymore... im scared to ..

i dont have strength each time... i fall asleep with my laptop heat seeping in my head till 3 am in my dorm room.. i get up with the lights on... i quickly rush off everything, brush my teeth, then set my alarm...

I go back to my routine of uni classes each day.. I hate it when its 8 am... I have to quickly striking mentally my brain before class starts... i get so depressed... its like a dark cloud over me ...

i cant feel the sun.. the fresh air.. sometimes its so suffocating... i have a nice airy third floor room which has a nice breeze and fresh air and lovely sun outside... i know its there... but i cant feel it...

i feel liek crying so bad everytime... i cant get a tear out.. the last time i cried... i almost choked of sadness.. my heart felt so hurt.. i could not pack for the next day of sem 2 in uni... i vomited 5 times in the evening and could not sleep for 3 hours... i woke up the next day, took a pill and vomited 3 times again..

im giving up.. but im not... im fainting at every early corner when doing work... im sleeping at 12 pms .. to get up at 3...

im supposed to be doing heaps of assignments. but im not..

i'll probably grab packets of biscuits and sugared drinks again to keep up my mood.. I hate it when this happens.. I cant control myself...

I have no true friends... people only want to come for me for help.. when i am useful and my brain still well... If theres any connections, Im as insecure as a shyt..
fucking shyt...

I'm in pain so much, i dont know what to do...
i cant make anyone proud. i cant be there for myself, WHAT THE FUCK?! WWHAT THE ACTUAL MOTHER FUCKING FUCK??? I have no self-esteem.. i got noone to depend to... i cant cry and laugh with someone .. i want to laugh with someone heartily ... to know that the stars above can be my sweet hope if guide and love...

i cant cry.. i want to cry.. most people out there want to contribute to the world.. i dont know, i dont care.. i want to cry..

Im fucking 20... I have no grip in life.. Im sad as fuck as an otter who let go of his partner.. I dont have belief... I am a lost kitten in front of a drain with green grass, fresh air,warm sun at the other end.. There's a mini mouse there,  but i cant jump.. Im scared.. the water is gushing... I look down, and see a reflection...  A broken soul , a broken heart, i cant look at myself for too long... or i might just fall down at the pavement again feeling acid tears that were never there...

I dont know where my life is heading.. im scared... i want to join aiesec so badly, but I'm scated...I'm a good influence, but noone fucking believes me... noone cares to see how deep a pain can be... noone.. because i cannot..

I'm shattered, shattered glass, everywhere inside out.. the mirror is just a thing to me... a thing to try to make myself feel better each day.. but i cant.. im sad... i m...

Starting afresh 2015..

Starting from today, 16/4 1.20 AM...

I hope to start afresh...

Yes, this post will have many edits... I will edit from time to time..

I just dont want to leave this world without a legacy

No, I'm not a hero, not a writer, not a broken, not your guide

I'm just a broken girl, shattered glass... shattered glass shown right directly in my eyes, shining bright..

I dont care how long it will take to heal... i will try my best to leave a good mark in this world

Noo... I;m not the genius who can know everything and tell you everything you need to know..

It;s a blog, a journal to write my unspoken thoughts, my upturned feelings as time goes by to certain events...

Noo.. i dont have many events in my life... my fcking head is one universe of events despite the no- events happening, just in a chair

I'm fucking 20, Im broken everywhere, like a cactus emmiting negativity everywhere, 

im broken..

this is not a Chicken Soup tale, it's a tale of trying to heal, a tale of the shytt that flies through my brain every moment..

'I'm not normal, I think like I'm drugged, like I'm not loved , I'm drunk..

there will be edits, but i promise to heal.. to try to heal... my feelings are the strongest, my eyes are the saddest, my mouth is the weakest, my dreams and hopes are the highest...

I know.. I want to heal... pls help me, pls help me learn... I'll do my best

Artic Hare

                
ARTIC HARE


Have you met these living snowballs? These adorablee huffle puffs!
Huff puff bloww.. they probably will stay on the snow covered ground bundled in warmth and safety.
The arctic hare survives with a thick coat of fur and usually digs holes in the ground or under snow to keep warm and sleep

English to Chinese Words

Body Parts (Shēntǐ bùwèi)    People- Ren                       

Eye- Yǎn   Aunt- Tuakim

Eyeballs- Yǎnqiú Dad - Papa

Eyelash- Jiémáo Mum- Mama

Face- Miàn duì Uncle- Tuaku

Finger- Shǒuzhǐ Sister- Cheche, Meimei

Foot-  Jiǎo Brother- Gorgor,,

Hand- Shǒu Baby- Yīng'ér

Hair- Tóufǎ Me- Wo

Head- Tóu You- Ni

Leg- Tuǐ We- Wo'men

Nails- Dīngzi

Skin- pifu

Toe- Jiǎozhǐ

Tongue- Shétou

Tooth- Yáchǐ

Lovee singingg

I cann seriously go fking drunkk even without beer..
All i need is just a good laptopp and songss..
Im seriouslly sadd today.. and thiss is sooo heavenlyy...

evergreen love to brocolli

Poor brocolli. In a sea of cauliflower, Juriana left out two brocollis from many cauliflowers. Howw can so many ppl hate brocollis? They're so fresh and mouth-watering, delectable, delicous, delightfull!!

 

Health benefits of brocolli:

Prevent osteoarthritis - a British study revealed that broccoli contains a compound called sulfophane which may help fight osteoarthritis³ - sulforaphane can block cartilage-destroying enzymes by intercepting a molecule that causes inflammation.

Protect your skin against the effects of UV light - broccoli may help prevent skin cancer, not by eating it though, but by applying it directly to the skin. An article in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences found that the damaging effects of UV (ultraviolet) radiation can be appreciably reduced with the topical application of a broccoli extract.⁴

Useful for Unimas laa... look how much sun there is  

Reverse diabetes heart damage - eating broccoli promotes the production of enzymes that help protect heart blood vessels⁵ and reduce the molecules that damage them.

Okk.. guys soo I must start thinking of how to calm myself downn from the fking crazy life of uni... you know how fking you're trying to calm yourself down due to the piling books to study and control social,emotional, family, physical life all in once.. its crazy.. 

Reduce cancer risk - eat broccoli just three times each month and you could potentially reduce the chance of developing bladder cancer⁶ by around 40 percent, according to experts at the Roswell Park Cancer Institute in Buffalo, USA.

Try jagaa health lehh..

Broccoli plant compound detoxifies air pollutants in the body - research from the Johns Hopkins Bloomberg School of Public Health in Baltimore, MD, suggests new benefits of eating broccoli.

With the horrible weird food,im putting in my mouth due to stress.. thx brocolli you can reverse this.

Study participants from one of the most polluted regions in China who consumed half a cup of broccoli sprout beverage were shown to excrete high levels of benzene and acrolein - a known human carcinogen and lung irritant, respectively.

Malaysia can get a bit like these loo..

A dayy of Kuih Muih

1)  2) 3)
4) 5) 6)

7) 8) 9)
10)


1)Ang Koo Kueh   5) Kuih Lapis           9) Apam Balik
2) Kuih Kapit        6) Ham Chim Peng  10)Kuih Bahulu
3) Telinga Keling  7) Kuih Cincin
4) Hoon Kuih        8) Kuih Karas

History of Tea Time:

Prior to the introduction of tea into Britain, the English had two main meals, breakfast and dinner. Breakfast was ale, bread, and beef.  During the middle of the eighteenth century, dinner for the upper and middle classes had shifted from noontime to an evening meal that was served at a fashionable late hour. Dinner was a long, massive meal at the end of the day.

Awesome Encouraging Motivating Songs

Brave (Sara Barailles)
Defying Gravity
Eye of the Tiger
Fireworks
Heal the World ( Michael Jackson)
It's My Life(Bon Jovi)
Lose Yourself
Pump It
Roar
Till I Collapse

Sea Monkeys, Froggys, and Otters.. Crocodile approves

Feb 6/2015
Woke up
Coffee bread
Cups spin very fast all around.. Froggy and Sea Monkey were not spinning.. already dizzy
Willy the Whale chopped up
Wavesss dammn big... partyyy with sea otter!!
ATC
Vuvuzela ( It was a spashtacular PLUNGEE!!)
Mama called.. you hang out with the gurls?? yeaa... sakae 'sushi' get high in octopus!!
Seoul Garden, Japanese lick their eyeballs? Funny stories
Bristol talk,bla bla talk
Visit Taylor's quite nice
Go backk

Crocodile signing out ^^

Thailand Grand Palace

Thailand Gold Shrine Grand Palace.. all packed into one Instagram :D

The Grand Palace (Thai: พระบรมมหาราชวัง, RTGS: Phra Borom Maha Ratcha Wang^[1]) is a complex of buildings at the heart ofBangkok, Thailand. The palace has been the official residence of the Kings of Siam (and later Thailand) since 1782. The king, his court and his royal government were based on the grounds of the palace until 1925.

The palace complex, like the rest of Ratanakosin Island, is laid very similar to the palaces of Ayutthaya, the glorious former capital of Siam which was raided by the Burmese. The Outer Court, near the entrance, used to house government departments in which the King was directly involved, such as civil administration, the army and the treasury. The Temple of the Emerald Buddha is located in one corner of this outer court. The Central Court is where the residence of the King and halls used for conducting state business were located. Only two of the throne halls are open to the public, but you'll be able to marvel at the exquisite detail on the facades of these impressive structures.

The Inner Court is where the King's royal consorts and daughters lived. The Inner Court was like a small city entirely populated by women and boys under the age of puberty. Even though no royalty currently reside in the inner court, it is still completely closed off to the public. Despite the proximity of the Grand Palace andWat Phra Kaew, there's a distinct contrast in style between the very Thai Temple of the Emerald Buddha and the more European inspired design of the Grand Palace (the roof being the main exception). Other highlights are Boromabiman Hall and Amarinda Hall, the original residence of King Rama I and the Hall of Justice.

Hello, sorry the lighting is so badd .. and my expression looks like CRAP!!
Well, starts the days of my heart healing process. WHATEVER

Anyhooo.. check out these BIG BIG JACKFRUITS.. mr jack had a twin. and his name is also Jack! If Jack had to go up a hill with Jill to fetch a pail of wateerr , he would seriously tumble down in timee because he's rolling up with momentum and so bigg!!

These are two Jack twins I saw at Langkawi.. oo.. so its like JacksGap... I guess I met Jacksgap at langkawi :P 

1. The jackfruit (Artocarpus heterophyllus) is the largest of all tree-borne fruits

2.The jackfruit is probably the only tree in which, because of their huge size, the fruits grow from the trunk and major branches rather than among the foliage or the tip of the stems. 

3. In some rare occurrence, the fruit actually grows from the roots under the ground.
-The existence of an underground fruit is not known until certain cracks appear below the trunk and the sweet aroma of the ripe fruit oozes out from the ground.

4.The jackfruit is native to parts of Southern and  Southeast Asia.

5. The ash of jackfruit leaves, burned with corn and coconut shells, is either used alone or mixed with coconut oil to heal ulcers.

6.  The jackfruit tree should have a well-drained, frost-free location that is sunny and warm.

7.  Little or no pruning is required other than to remove any dead branches from the interior of the tree, so that sufficient light is obtained for the developing fruit.

Masquearde,with this lady

Soo I had a pretty good day dressing up with this lady... I'm always trying to find funny stuff to put on just for fun memories sake... 

Originally masquerade balls were to celebrate a wedding or major royal event, while wearing a costume and masquerade mask. 

Here's a few fun facts about masquerade :D

1. Masked prostitutes would engage in the most reckless games of eroticism, and be certain that their anonymity would dissolve all accepted restraints.

2.

Aristocrats, who would usually go to great lengths not to disclose even a clue of their sexual preferences, were able to wear masks and star in acts that back then were not only sinful but also against the law.

3. Even gamblers wore masks to remain anonymous, lest great personal wins and/or losses of money or possessions would not be known by the community.

4.

The average citizen found that by wearing a mask they could act like a stranger, revealing their real persona, which they normally kept to themselves to avoid being judged by others.

5.Masquerade balls grew with the creativity of the Renaissance time into semi public events where commoners and servants could intermingle under the veil of a mask.

Weirddd first fact!! Oh Yeahh, I really liked 'All the Right Moves' by The Script.. It's a good song about Masquerades.. :D https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wtJuVwstyE0

Credits to : https://thevagrantfilm.wordpress.com/2010/02/16/interesting-masquerade-facts-from-venice/

I think one of the reasons why I can become so depressed is because of timing. And the fact I dont express myself well enough. When Im happy, I automatically don't believe I can tell you I'm being happy without  convinving you.

Im strange. I  can drift without forgetting the purpose and sparks.

So, what do i do when Im not out socializing, making my life better, eating GOURMET food, exercising to break the good food, making nd bondng with nee friends... I Want to be typing away, increasing my knowledge behind the keys... yes,im a nerdy nerd nerd.. but that's how memories goes i guess...
ps: this blog can be EDITED!! life cannot, feelings cant, but BLOGS CAN!!

Langkawi Jan 2015

Day 1 
Cenang mall
 This mall is small. Just a  two-storey shopping complex in Pantai Cenang

KFC+Chatime and Old Town White Coffee
Grass Jelly Roasted Milk Tea, Kaya butter toast and Hazelnut Coffee

Eat

Day 2 


The Zon
( Pantai Cenang Beach)
Malaysia's most developed west-coast beach
Faizy's Crystal Glass- Blowing


Eat


Day 3
Cenang mall
Chocolate!! (green tea kitkat + mousse ritter sport + white choc macadamia ritter sport)

26/1/2015

My firsstt ever post..
Life is crazyy.. my life is crazy... life is not so crazy...
Starting from... NOW ... im gonna write many things and edit theem a lot.. because to tell you the truth... my mind's never organized..

I guess when someone asks what's wrong me I should just tell them to read this blog.. i guess it can explain everything...

ugh ugh ..i'll edit later..lazy a bit...